Budigoy….

My favorite poem since sophomore high…
When I close my eyes and try to relive the first time I’ve read it.
I see trees dancing along the nice afternoon breeze,
I try to feel it as I stretch my arm outside the window,
grasping as if I could catch the wind in the palm of my hand
I can hear the rustling crisp sun-dried leaves on the ground…
Wait a sec, doesn’t it sound like I’m thinking about
TREES by Joyce Kilmer?
Nah! That’s way back Grade-school..

Anyway here it is;

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly, and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be
greater and lesser persons than yourself.

Enjoy your achievements as well as
your plans.
Keep interested in your own career
however humble;
it is a real possession in the
changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you
to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit
to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.

And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,

keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham,
drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.

Strive to be happy.

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Just another half-sunday

July 27th, 2008 by jason-goymon

What’s a Half-Sunday? Another Sunday when I wake up really late like 12 noon so I only get half of the day. Like today, it’s what I get when I sleep really late (or rather early coz it was early morning already - 3am).

Haibuhai! I really-really want to make Sundays like the day for myself. Like do whatever it is I wanted to do or go wherever I felt like going to. Maybe spend the whole day in front of my pc watching downloaded or dvd movies. Or maybe watch cartoons/anime all day. Stay at my friends’ house, hang-out. mall hopping alone just doing window shopping. Stay at home read a magazine. I missed reading. I didn’t read that much when I was young but I did my fair share of it. And I loved reading, but It’s just hard for me to find a book I really like.

I wish I could go out with her every Sunday. Just spend the whole day with her. But we just can’t. I don’t know why things just keep coming, things happen and come Friday and we always at have to cancel it. I don’t know what to make of it anymore.

Anyway, it feels good to be able to wake-up AND get-out of bed real early again during workdays. I just wish I could sleep earlier every night but I can’t. I have difficulties sleeping but not every night. It’s random, some days even when I’m tired and I go to bed early and try to sleep early I just can’t. And I usually end up lying on my bed for more than an hour before I finally get to sleep. I try not to think of anything just so I could sleep but it just doesn’t work. I try to think of boring things to get me in the mood but it’s doesn’t work too. I end up thinking about where I am in y life right now and what do I want to do with it. What about it? Well I don’t feel like sharing it here so I won’t.

I like to ride on the backseat of my friends’ car and open the window and feel that wind on my face (well it’s actually polluted air so you can irk all you want, lols). lately me and my friends we talked about going out of town, having a nice and relaxing weekend. But we really don’t have any formal plans. I’m looking forward to it. I just can’t sleep right now that’s why I’m doing this blog, just so I could somehow tire myself and get sleepy. The president’s state-of-the nation address is going to be tomorrow. It’s going to be traffic around Batasan sometime in the morning. I wish it would be during my morning commute.

What do I do now? What do I have to do next? What do I really want? Those are just a few of the questions I often ask myself. I like talking to myself, I mean self-conversations. And I mean I enjoy it. Maybe I’m just a bit more self-reflective than normal. But then again everyone does it constantly. I just know that I was actually aware that I was talking to myself at a young age. It feels like I’ve been doing it for a lifetime already.

Ah finally! I’m starting to feel a little sleepy-ness. Just a little bit more. I’m very thankful that my mother didn’t had to go through a bypass surgery or whatever it’s called. She was scheduled for it early this week, but the angiogram (I’m not sure if I spelled it right) results says she doesn’t have to. So Thank you LORD. Very-very much. I still feel very blessed right now. And I also want to thank those people (my friends, close friends) whom I asked to pray for and did pray for my mother’s health. Thank you! Maraming Salamat! You know who you are!

I really don’t like going to church and actually being there for more than an hour just to formally finish a Sunday mass. And i really hate Priests, they talk and act like they know everything. I mean He’s (GOD is) constantly with us. He knows everything we think of and do. And we all know there’s lots of Hippocrates out there who attend the mass every Sunday and know try real hard to be religious and ***. But in reality they’re not really maka-tao and they’ like to hate and make people feel uncomfortable and they do shout at other people like the servers at fast-foods and sales people at stores and nurses at the hospitals. I mean people who really don’t practice what they preach or hear every darn Sunday at church or what they read in the bible. I hate them. I don’t like being around or near those people. Whenever I encounter one I really try and get as far away from those people.

You know those mata-pobreng grumpy people who likes to shout at the parking guards or waiters. I hate those people. They better not do me wrong if they don’t want to get hurt (lols!like I would do anything stupid like punch them on the face or hit/wack them with something real hard on the back of their head). And if you happen to be one of them! FU!

I feel sleepy now so I guess this is the end.
I hope I have another newly downloaded dvd-rip movie or naruto animated episode or something interesting to look up in the net or maybe something nice to read next time to get sleepy so I wouldn’t end up having to type another blog…

hah…
Goodnight to me..

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Sweet Frustration…

May 20th, 2008 by jason-goymon

Sweet Frustration(artist: Audiovent)
feelI'm walking through this, my life Paralyzed
But this sweet frustration keeps me alive
It seems like

I have died a thousand days
Just to feel this quicksand
And every movement is embraced
By this sweet frustration

Pain,
From throwing my insides out
Only to decompose
Right in front of my eyes
It seems like

I have died a thousand days
Just to feel this quicksand
And every movement is embraced
By this sweet frustration

And someday
My sweet frustrations will bloom

I won't die another day
No more sweet frustration

I have died a thousand days
Just to feel this quicksand
And every movement is embraced
By this sweet frustration

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xPrHroAZcE

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Favorite Jacket…. When I was a pc salesman…

April 13th, 2008 by jason-goymon

My Intel Jacket…

Alas! I thought I lost it coz I haven’t seen this for like 6 months or so. Then just last night I did and I was like ‘wow!’…

This was one of the things that reminds me of how proud I was when I was working as a Computer Salesman and Technician…

Like what our Identification card says; "Happy to serve you" come-one tell us what you need for you PC. Like ‘Yes mam, Yes sir!" in Filipino (damn ang layo nun ah). We enjoy what we do. And as much as hard, demanding and sometimes even frustrating it was we did love our job. Yeah we did techy work but we did a LOT more of grunt work. and for the guys out there still hanging. My old buddies! just want to shout out to you guys! wooohoo! you know who u r repapips!

And why do every time I remember someone telling me the grass is greener on the other. I stop and viola! I’m standing on a cement pavement. Damn sidewalk. Where there is b-e-a-u-tifully grown bermuda grass there’s always a sign "keep off the grass". From where I’m standing there’s no grass so how can I tell?

Intermission______________________________________________
jason: "Mr. Gardener can I, you know maybe step on the grass for 5 seconds? Please!? you know my friends told me the grass is greener on the other side and I just wanna know for sure"
gardener: (picks-up a shovel and gets into a swinging position)
jason: Come-on give me a break!
gardener: "pu**** pa english2 kapa ah!"
jason: "aw! time-out! FU ka manong aray! FU!"
gerdener: "u want some english ha? here’s some english for you! GET LOST you stupid madapaka!"
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Back then normally people/regular consumers may have misjudged me as one of those sales people who would practically do anything (e.i. mambola ng consumers basta lang makapagbenta) just to sell what we have to.. Hell no! and I did prove that! Everyday damn day at work I did! God knows!

The bottom line for me was to offer what we have that fits the consumers needs. and what they ‘NEED’ always comes before what they "WANT"… and sometimes I have to make them understand that.. so they’re realize that what they need is actually what they want and not the other way around. Coz sometimes they just get tempted buying what they thought would be ‘nice’ to have (eye candy)…

When you let them buy things that way. The ‘right’ way. For sure they won’t be returning after a few days or so demanding a change-item or worst - a refund. With some threatening/disturbing words on the side just to spice-up your regular day…

I’m not saying I know a lot of stuff or anything like that I’m just reminiscing what my everyday life at work used to be like…

And when you thought this blog was going to all the way serious? you’ve been fooled.. I’ve always made myself be know as a clown! lol!

Everyday at work back them it was all smiles… We we’re free to make some noise kidding/goofing around the store when it’s just us (no costumers). We would make fun of ourselves. Share anime, movies, pc games, mp3s, wallpapers, nba, korean love story dvds etc… We were all close. We we’re like family… we even spent more time at work than at home (we worked 6 days a week plus overtime).

We would have Tons of food every now and then whenever someone’s having a birthday or someone’s celebrating this or that… Everyday we face the dilemma of having to choose from a wide variety of food to choose for lunch (hell yeah! we work inside megamall for crying out loud)… Ahh should it be mango-sago, gulaman, zagoo maybe just ice cream for dessert or something like that! Serves your tonsilitis/diabetic appetite just damn right! water therapy-water therapy! lol! From our manager’s treat Mann Hann to vegetarian Bodhi. From Pizzahut to Sbarro. Pancit to Spaghetti. Snowpy to Manolia Supreme. Gatorade to black gulaman. Man we had it all and it was all good!

But I’m done missing those times… I enjoyed as much as I learned… For real…

A lot of unfortunate things happened in those 3 years. I’m glad I left before those things pile up half as much as the good-happy memories I have of working there.

I don’t believe nothing lasts forever but I do believe some things just don’t.

When I decided to leave that was that. There was no turning back at all. Man I can’t just float there forever. So to every ex-workmate out there reading this; THANK YOU! Thank you for the good times, the memories. Thank you for being there at hard times. Thank you for sharing your knowledge, wisdom.. Thank you.. I’m just very thankful. As always, I always feel blessed… peace out!